No formation this morning, so I slept in a little later than usual. I was still up at the school house by 7:20 and I got my trombone out and got a good warmup in. Then I headed back to my room to do computer stuff, crochet (I made a dishcloth!), and just plain relax. I ate lunch around 11:30 and about noon headed back over to the school house for another quick warm up. I headed into my audition at 12:30.
Well, I played really well on my solo (or at least I thought I did), my first 2 scales were totally gross but the second two were good, and my sight reading was ok. It was fairly easy sightreading – and 2 of the pieces I had sightread on my incoming audition. All in all, I left the room with a good feeling – maybe 2.85 or 2.9.
And then the wait began. . . and I waited some more. . . . and some more. . . . and I finally got my score around 3:00 (I played at 12:30). I scored a 2.8, and I’m not happy with it. It’s enough to graduate, but how can they say that I didn’t improve at all in the past 6 weeks? And with that score, my academic average drops below 92% so I’m out of the running for Honor Graduate.
And now a few words about my audition panel, and their unprofessionalism. There are 2 people grading the audition, and whenever I wasn’t playing, they were bs’ing about other stuff and just talking and joking. And then when it came for the sight reading, they are supposed to give me the tempo and then I have a minute to look it over. I had to ask for my tempo EVERY time. Ok, so maybe they were talking and joking in between to help me be less nervous, but that doesn’t work for me. When I’m in a serious situation and I have my game face on, I expect those around me to be serious (or at least respect the fact that I want/need to be serious) – especially in a situation such as this. I’m thinking of going and seeing the Sergeant Major about it so it doeesn’t happen again to another musician.
I went for a run after I got back (5 miles) to clear my mind and do some thinking. Gavin (my friend and fellow trombonist from Ft. Gordon) said something after he got his score (he’s not too happy either), and I’m going to try and take it to heart. He said that what they saw/heard today was 20 minutes of our lives, and that they can’t really see what kind of a player we really are during that 20 minutes. I know that I have improved during my time here, and that’s what matters most. I’m just the most upset about being out of the running for Honor Grad because I’ve worked so hard for it.
Well, I’m off to enjoy the rest of my evening – going to go hang out with my classmates after I call my guys.
Overnight low: 37
Today’s high: 43